It's been a while since I've finished school, with nothing better to do than to live the life of an unemployed person. My memory is quite bad though, I forget so many things and very often Panty likes to test me with stupid shit T_T. Like "b when is the first time we went to *insert place*" or "b have we ever dined in *insert restaurant* together?". And so so often I don't remember. I usually get it on my second try though, not too bad, not too bad haha.
In my defense, I have fantastic short term memory wtf. That lasts for about 24 hours. That's my only 'secret' to doing well in school all these years. I am crap in class, I never know how to answer anything when you ask me, I never study until I'm left with the last few days, but I always score in exams. Secret is that everything I write in the last 24 hours I remember, but problem with this plan is when something happens the day before, I AM DEAD.
Anyway, I digress. My blog is such a good place to remember all my thoughts and all the things I've done.
So here goes my life in Ohio.
It is a horrendously boring place, like my boyfriend has cautioned me many many times. But I'm having the time of my life!
I don't question that for the last 5 years of my life, my best times are always with you. If you ask me what's so fantastic about the US, I don't know. I don't know, but all I know is that I'm happy here. And all I know is that, you make me happy.
I can't count the number of times I've laughed until my stomach hurts in the past month, I can't remember how many mornings I wake up with a smile on my face, I also can't remember the number of times I feel like punching you because you are so damn annoying haha.
Right now I'm also supposed to decide the next phase of my life.
There are only two options. To go to the UK to do more of my professional papers (the much easier way), or to stay home where my heart lies in PJ, get a job and self-study my professional papers.
It's no question that I'd pick the latter in a heartbeat. Don't get me wrong, I loved my life in the UK. As much as I whine and complain about needing to go home, UK is great, but home is better. Home is fantastic, home is where everything I want and need is. Home is bliss. I want to be with my family, I want to be with my baby Lexy, I want to be with the love of my life, I want to be with all my darlings.
So I earn a little less, I work a little harder, and it's all going to be shit. But shit with people I love trumps all.
Then I look at the more sensible part and think that after only a year I can resume this love I have for home. Sacrifice a year, and then have a much better future because without professional papers I mean nothing in the working world T_T. Which isn't even that big a sacrifice because I like the UK! Plus life will be so much easier. I get spending money, I don't even think I need to study for 75% of the time there. 15% dedicated to assignments, 10% towards finals, and I'll be done babes!
So right now I'm SO caught in between you have no idea. I have a lot of time to myself these couple of days since Panty has now started studying for his finals (not very successfully, just played a round of Catan with them boys even though they both have a paper tomorrow!!). And when I'm left with my own thoughts this has CONSTANTLY been on my mind. It's so tough *cries.
Anyway I'll update soon with lots of pictures. This is me talking to my potential future self, reminding myself of the life I used to have before say, working? Hahaha which is all going to end soon, I think.
Much loves!
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