I grew up never needing to prove myself to the world. My daddy and mummy thought I was the greatest thing regardless of how I screw up, and that's how I come to peace with myself. Sure, I still grew up bratty because I was baby of the family for so many years, but my sister taught me selfless love, and that's why I will always have the most respect for her.

I grew up with a best friend who thought the world of me, and even though things will never be the same, I had the best childhood with him. I grew up loved.

I found a soulmate when I was 16 that knows me too well, that despite my flaws still choose to love me and let me love her back!

And then at 17 I found the love of my life, who before I loved, already loved me for everything that I am, for all my goods and all my bads. Before I fell in love, you already gave me your world. And when I fell in love, you became my world.

Through years and years I also have best friends who always listens, never judges and loves me exactly for how I am. To be honest I don't know what it's like backstabbing and being competitive. Because I never needed to be.

I don't have a lot of friends, but it's only because the ones I choose to keep, I love to death. I don't have 'complicated' friendships or relationships. If I love you, then I love you.

And I never needed to show I'm great or shout for attention.

And sometimes, just sometimes, when I'm thrown into this new world here, I'm lost because all these people I need in my life are not here with me. When people I like here are putting me down, what do I do? Run to skype or whatsapp for reassurance? I'm not used to making people feel shit about themselves and see who gets the last say at the end of the day.

And I don't want to become that person.